Still worrying and what to do about it

I always seem to end up back at the same place.  Today, I find myself worrying about my future, again.  God has done amazing things in my life, yet I am still worrying.  I want to figure it all out.  I want to know what it will look like, when we will get there and how we will pay our bills.  So many questions.  Do you have one constant worry that you can’t seem to shake?  When I boil it down, the finances scare me the most.  It’s like I can trust God to a certain point, but any further and I just can’t get there.  I confess this frequently.  No need to hide it.  God knows our hearts.

Last night, I attended a Night of Healing Service.  As I worshipped God in song, I heard in my heart, “I’m taking that fear”.  It felt as if God reached inside of me and plucked it right out.  I felt free.  But this morning, I go back to that place of worry.  Crunching numbers, trying to figure it out.  I refer to it as future tripping.  There is no peace in the worry.  I confess that I continue to hang on to this  fear of our finances.  I ask God to show me how to trust HIM with a whole heart.  I thank God that HE is patient with me.  Even last night, before I drifted off to sleep,  God spoke to my heart and said “Trust me.”  How can I trust when I can’t see?  But isn’t this what we call faith?  God’s words bring me peace.  God is teaching me to trust HIM.  This is my lesson right now.

This morning, I flipped to Jesus Calling and the scriptures are John 16:33 and Luke 12-21-33.  Jesus says in Luke,  “Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will wear…Oh you of little faith.  Do not be afraid.” This is not a rebuke.  This is Gentle Jesus, reassuring me that I don’t have to worry about the future.  God is answering me in scripture.  Such peace.  Maybe you are worrying about something today.  Maybe it is your future or your health or an aging parent.  Whatever it is, give it to God and trust God.  I hope you will take the time to read this entire passage from Luke.  I believe that God will speak to your heart and comfort you in a way only God can.

For me, reading these scriptures is confirmation, again.   I am on the right path.  I do not need to worry even though, in this world there will be troubles.  In the passage from John 16:33, Jesus tells us, “I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace.”  We want to worry.  But when we worry, we are not trusting God.  If there is something that you are worrying about today, pray.  You can write your prayer in a journal or just take some quiet time and tell God what you are worrying about.  If you are angry with God, it is okay.  Tell God.  God already knows it anyway.  God is waiting for you to bring it to HIM.  Hand God your worry.  Let God carry it for awhile.  And every time it comes to mind today, thank God that God is taking care of it for you.  I’m going to do this everyday until the day comes when I trust God with my whole heart.  As my worry diminishes my peace rises.  Here’s the amazing part, in going before God, you are seeking the kingdom of God inside yourself.  And Luke 12 tells us “Seek God’s kingdom  and all these things will be given to  you.” So what do we have to worry about anyway.

ps – if you feel far away from God, check out my blog on Drawing near to God.  If you are not sure how to pray, click on my page, How to Pray or Prayer.  Leave a comment and I’ll will be sure to be praying for you.

Dear God, help me trust you with my life, my finances, my future.  I confess that I am worried.  Thank you for taking that worry from me not only today, but forever. Thank you for being patient with me and continuing to show me your amazing love.  Teach me to seek you first in all things.  In Jesus Name, Amen.  -M